First, my apologies for failing to post recently. I’m in the process of moving and finding a new job. Plus, it’s summer and I’ve ended up spending a lot more time outside. While all those things have played a role in my absence, the main reason I haven’t posted in a while is I currently spend all my hours watching Downton Abbey.
I may be a couple years behind on this one but now I’m obsessed. I just finished Season 4 and am already sad I only have two seasons left. The show is everything I wanted and expected it to be but so much more. It’s hilarious and clever and witty and there so many couples that I spend half of my time yelling ‘kiss her already!’ at my TV screen. Seriously, there is not enough kissing in the early 20th century!
The first time I saw him I knew Matthew Crawley was going to be my favourite. He was charming and extremely attractive. Him and Mary are my Downton Abbey OTP. Which brings me to THAT episode. Ugh!! Still not OK! So not OK!! I will admit that I knew it was coming. I knew one spoiler when I began the show, and that was ‘Matthew Crawley dies in a car crash in the Season 3 Christmas Special’ – I’ll admit it was a pretty detailed spoiler! I knew it was coming and I think that made it all the more awful.
That entire episode I was waiting, just waiting for it to happen. Him and Mary were finally so happy. They just had a baby. That final scene together in the hospital. I cried. I was sobbing. I knew the end was near and I couldn’t stop. Then the inevitable happened and I continued to cry. The friend I’m watching with grabbed the kleenex and ice cream from the freezer at this point. We needed something to drown our sorrows with.
I was so sad. It was like a really bad book hangover. The entire next day I just found myself sad. I couldn’t stop thinking about it. Poor Mary, poor George, poor Isobel, poor everyone else. I was heartbroken.
I will rank this as one of the worst fictional deaths I’ve ever experienced. At least one of the worst TV deaths. **spoilers** The two I will compare it to are when Marissa died on The OC and when McDreamy was killed off Grey’s Anatomy (though Grey’s has had a number of other powerful deaths). Doctor Who has also made me cry on a number of occasions. I watch Doomsday when I want to cry and I don’t think I’ll ever be able to watch The Time of the Doctor again. But that’s the nature of the show, characters and actors only last so long.
Back to Matthew. I went on a little break between Season 3 & 4. I needed some time to digest and accept and come to terms with things. I wasn’t ready to see Mary sad and alone. But I have since watched Season 4 and while I did cry a couple times during the first episode the show I now love so much was still there.
I understand Dan Steven’s wanted off the show and I understand they couldn’t have just written his character away but it’s still not OK. So not OK! I can’t imagine if I had watched this a few years ago when it first aired and had to suffer along with everyone else. Though at least then others would feel and understand my pain.
As for now, I’ll continue to watch the final two seasons of Downton and eagerly await the day I get to see Dan Steven’s pretty face on the big screen in Beauty & the Beast. Even if he’s going to be a Beast for the majority of the movie, he does have such a pretty face.
I know I’m overly emotional but I can’t be the only one who felt like this. What’s the worst TV death you’ve ever experienced? Let me know in the comments!
Till next time,